Cool dude

Ewan seems to know how to use the shovel. We just need to get him a little stronger and bigger. Or we could get him a shovel his own size.

Home for the Weekend

Mom's roses with a small spider on one of them . Ewan loves to smell the flowers. I love that he does it with his whole face.

Ella Grace

I spend most of my day here at home with my 2 wonderful children. However my mind and heart are often in another place. They are with my angel baby Ella. I would like to take some time to share her with everyone. Very few people got to meet her in person after she was born, only the immediate family, her grandparents and aunts. I so wish we had had more time to share her with everyone. I didn't have the words to explain the feeling I am having surrounding her death, so I have borrowed these:

"Ella was never able to cry or open her eyes, but through her dignified and graceful presence she taught us so much. We learned the hardest and most painful lessons as we studied her peaceful face and touched her still little body. We learned the folly of believing that we have control over what happens in our lives, and the wisdom of letting go when the time comes. We found depths of hurt and strength in ourselves we'd never known and watched the boundaries drawn between birth, life and death blur until they cease to exist or matter. We discovered as a family how much we could do for each other in the face of a crisis and how much the love and support of friends mean at such a time. We realized the miracle that is a healthy child and the dedication of those who spend their lives caring for our children, whether unborn or well or sick. We found our faith and beliefs withstanding much searching and testing, bearing us up when the waves of doubt threatened to sweep us under. We became aware that there is an essence, a life force beyond what we call "personality," and that this is what we came to know in our daughter, and how she communicated so much to us."

Ella was 3lbs 15 oz, and 16.5inches in length. I believe it was her short life that saved Quinn.

We will love and think of her always.

The 2 reasons I get up every day

Self Portrait

Pre Run Picture

Post Run Picture. Still smiling!

I must admit that it does get a little easier every time I go out to run. Still doing 2min run with 1 min walk 7 times. Just once more than I will move up to 3 min run.

Still learning how to use the new lenses. Some pictures from Subie park.

Jeff was out and bought some new lenses for the camera and I was experimenting with them. I will be taking a class in Sept on digital photography at the Community College. Hopefully it will help me understand my camera and allow me to use it to its fullest potential. If nothing else thus far it has made me pull out the manual and start to read a little.

We took the kids to the wildlife park on Sunday. What a beautiful day to be outside. Very hot though carrying Quinn in the snugli. Ewan liked looking at all the animals but he was far more interested in a lawn tractor that was driving around and of course all the rocks. He spent most of the day running.

Laura stopped by today, just in time to take me for my run during the hottest part of the day. Because of that I thought it would be best to take a pre run picture today instead of the post run picture. I was right when we got back Quinn was ready to eat so there would have been no time and I was not looking too hot. So today was the increase day. I successfully ran 2min with a 1min walk 7times. So a total of 14 min running. So I am slowly getting to the 20 min run goal. I am sure Laura and Ewan will continue to be my cheerleaders and keep me motivated.

Quinn is getting stronger by the day. She is holding her head up and looking all around. Ewan provides lots of entertainment.

More pictures of my children. Ewan just loves to hold Quinn, he is getting more gentle all the time. I wish we could have seen him hold both the girls together.